Diabetes: A Mother’s Story

Written by UTUE Director Patricia Rohn

It is difficult for me to write this story because of my feelings about my daughter with this disease. I have struggled with feelings of fear, hopelessness, shame and anger and I know that these overwhelming emotions can be almost as difficult as the disease itself. The mind-body connection is so evident to me. As I work with these emotions everyday, I confess that I have felt like somehow Jennifer’s diabetes is my fault and I know that Jennifer has felt that her disease is some type of punishment or label of unworthiness for her. I hope this story can help others as they struggle and to know that there is hope and possibilities for life that many may have not considered.

When my Daughter Jennifer was ten and a half she got the flu or so we thought. She had been sick for about two weeks, so I took her to the doctor. He ordered a standard blood test; it confirmed she had a virus of some kind, so it was agreed that it would have to run its course. Five days later she was close to death, and after a rush to the emergency room she was diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes (Type 1). Her blood sugars were well over 800. The average blood sugar levels (for a person without diabetes) are 80 to 120.

Jennifer is now in her 40’s. For the first 20 years she learned how to stay relatively healthy, even as she continued to live with diabetes. But she resisted going to the doctor and having regular checkups because she disliked and feared medical buildings and doctors. To her they represented the judgment and implied criticism that she felt from the disease: an evaluation of her as a person. She took the doctors and the results of their findings personally. This made my guilt even greater, because of my emotional approach to the world, and I felt that Jennifer learned her emotionality from me.

Jennifer and I began clearing together over ten years ago. I could see how her positive emotions helped her take care of herself and I even saw that when she was feeling hopeless and angry it affected her tests when she went to the doctor. We work together at least once a week doing the clearing, removing toxic emotions and energies, so that she can be happy and healthy. There have been times that this situation has been overwhelming for me and Jennifer, so she began to work with Merrilee, our UTUE Teacher who is has expertise with the physical body.

Recently, one of the major effects of Diabetes caught us by surprise. Jennifer developed Diabetic Retinopathy; as a result she is legally blind in her right eye. Emotionally, this was devastating for both of us. Our mutual fear of Jennifer becoming blind has been very difficult. As we struggled coping with doctors and the medical establishment, it was so clear the difference between doctors who have a “green personality” and those who don’t. We had a doctor tell her that it was inevitable that she would be blind and that she should just get used to it! Of course, that was just a judgment on his part that we refused to accept. There have been other doctors whose compassion and heart is truly an inspiration.  Without the clearing I’m not sure we would have coped with this situation as good as we have.

Many people ask me to rate the importance of nutritional support, exercise and clearing.  The reason we are working with Samantha is because these things cannot be separated and are part of a Green Personality. A true holistic approach is one that honors the mind body connection where the physical body and the emotions are considered. Many in the medical profession expect their patients to “just do it” without any emotional response or resistance. These medical professionals live in a world of denial and isolation. Contrast that with the many medical professionals who are heroes with great heart, compassion and familiarity with human emotions.

Diabetes is a difficult disease but it is not hopeless or insurmountable. I am so fortunate to have the clearing support as well as our other UTUE Teachers, Merrilee and Samantha to help. It is so clear that the mind body approach to diabetes or any disease has many benefits to everyone’s overall wellbeing.  Three key components accessible to all are: clearing the negative emotions, maintaining proper nutrition and exercise. This approach allows anyone to take their power and keeps them from becoming a victim to diabetes and other illnesses.

The most common call we get is when students struggle with overwhelming feelings of anger, fear and shame. We usually get them to a better place by clearing the negative energies connected to these feelings, but until we began working with Samantha, our Nutritional Therapist, we hadn’t considered the sugar connection and its toll on the physical body.

The truth is that sugar can start a downward spiral of negative emotions and/or reinforce them, and is directly connected to accelerated aging.

Sugar and simple carbohydrates put stress on the adrenal glands (walnut shaped glands that sit on the top of each kidney) by rapidly shifting blood sugar levels that in turn directly affect your mood. Cortisol, an adrenal hormone, works with insulin to maintain healthy levels of circulating glucose (blood sugar) and regulate the flow of glucose (the chief source of cellular energy) into the cells for energy production. When blood sugar levels are low (hypoglycemia), sweet cravings often follow. By eliminating sugar and processed foods, blood sugar remains more stable, providing less strain on the adrenal glands.

What can you do?

  • Celebrate the amazing person you are by allowing patterns that no longer serve you to die so you can experience a rebirth of ideas. Keep in mind that many cultures around the world view the aging process as a positive, powerful tool for growth and renewal.
  • Clear your way to enjoying healthier foods in their natural state so your Green Personality can shine through.
  • Replace white sugar with natural sweeteners such as ground stevia leaves, coconut palm sugar, date sugar, raw honey, and maple syrup, and use them in moderation.

Patricia RohnThis month, our Director and Teacher Patricia Rohn will be 60 years young. Those who know Patricia are amazed at her energy, youthfulness, mental clarity, and emotional intelligence.

Why is it that she is so healthy and able to teach five exercise classes a week on top of working with students full-time?

It is because Patricia embodies what we call a Green Personality.

Simply put, a Green Personality renews and sustains positive behaviors and effectiveness over long periods of time. It develops and grows over time and is better with age. A Green Personality supports a healthy body because it is natural for both the essence (soul) and the body to work in harmony. This is what is commonly known as the mind body connection.

A Green Personality uncovers essence by removing negative energy. It is an energetic process. The opposite of a Green Personality is programming and training where the essence is not considered. Too much programming in the form of behaviors and patterns creates a toxic environment that leads to disease, toxicity, and aging of the body and mind.

Patricia’s journey to a Green Personality was not an easy one. A naturally gifted child, her intuitive and artistic abilities where quashed by her mother’s jealousy and rage. Patricia learned early on that she would be abused if she competed with her, and as a result, she grew up with a lot of guilt, shame and anger about her unique talents. These negative emotions manifested in her physical body in the form of rheumatoid arthritis and pancreatitis, two extremely debilitating and chronic conditions.

“When I was 22 I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis (RA).  I  had a nodule removed from my thyroid and two weeks later I woke up with my knee the size of a small melon. After many tests they concluded that I had RA, and the doctor said it was aggressive and moving quickly and intensely. He said that I would live in a wheel chair by the time I was 30 years old. In my bold way, I expressed my dissatisfaction and he said I didn’t have to be angry. I told him I was a dancer and this diagnosis was a crushing blow to me. The wheel chair never happened. I started to watch my diet and became a vegetarian and started to exercise. I was told to avoid white sugar and white flour.

However, later I started having pain after eating certain foods like French fries, processed foods, and chocolate. I was losing my appetite and was avoiding foods that had lots of fat. My family doctor suggested Prozac because he couldn’t find anything wrong. I was in continuous pain like a toothache in the center of my body and I wasn’t eating and losing weight. I was so miserable life wasn’t attractive. I went to a specialist who diagnosed the pancreatitis. He told me ‘you need to stop drinking’! But I had stopped drinking five years earlier! I told him I didn’t drink but he didn’t believe me. The doctor prescribed medication and I started to feel better, but I had constant diarrhea and I had to organize my life around bathrooms because I couldn’t trust that I could go somewhere and not have an attack. Although the medications helped a little, it was extremely expensive and I had to prepare all my own meals because if I ate the wrong thing I would have such severe diarrhea that it would put me in the hospital.  My life revolved around this disease and limited me in profound ways.

After 10 years, I remember the doctor said ‘I don’t know how you’ve made it this far and if things don’t change you’ll be lucky if you make it another year.’ I was angry and afraid I was going to die. Most people die from pancreatitis within the first six months. Five years into my pancreatitis I was in a car accident while training for a new job. The accident shattered my knee and I was unable to work for five years.  This was the same knee that my RA was diagnosed. I had a difficult time walking and even after five years, when I met Jason, I was walking with a limp. Being able to just walk let alone lead exercise classes seemed out of the question.”

Like most of us, Patricia was trained to cope with what was going on in her life by eliminating the problem. However, simply eliminating the problem is never a solution. For real change to occur, the energy surrounding the problem needs to change.

In 1999 Patricia met Jason Rohn, Executive Director of UTUE, and after incorporating the Clearing Process and a whole foods diet, she made a most amazing recovery.

“Jason asked me if I would like him to help me with my emotions. I said sure, not believing that he could help me or if this process really worked. As we started to do what he called ‘clearing’, the most amazing things started to happen! I started sleeping through the night. For over six years I lived in constant pain, not only from the pancreatitis, but also from the car accident I was in. This was so amazing to me! As we continued to clear, I noticed that the colors all around me were more vibrant and I felt like I was walking on air. My life truly changed overnight.”

Food is an excellent example of the exchange of energy. Foods that have been processed (which is 90% of what grocery stores sell) are dead and lack the life force that they originally had when they were whole. Eating these foods and their energy of processing and machines creates imbalances for the ecosystem of the human body. This is why a holistic approach to nutrition is a synergistic partner to the Clearing Process.

At UTUE, we teach students how to use our unique Clearing Process to remove these negative energies so they can embody a Green Personality. Clearing allows you to see the barriers that are standing in your way so you can get what you need, want, and desire that is in alignment with the purpose of your essence.