So often we hear the question: What do I do now? I don’t know the new way to be, yet. I do know that the old way isn’t working for me. But, I feel uncomfortable not knowing how to do things differently.
First, we see the old programming, the Ego, the ‘Virtual Self’, suspended in air. This false self hovers there, limiting our brilliance and yet, so familiar and easy to draw from.
Then, beneath that, at the very core of our being, is the ‘Authentic Self’, the ‘Natural Self’, the ‘Green Personality’, the ‘True Self’. This is our Essence. We know there is this energetic source of who we are, and yet, we are so programmed to live from the ‘Virtual Self’.
Going inward, with the UTUE Clearing Process, guided by the Enneagram and our UTUE practitioner who can help us “see” around our blind spots, we gradually clear a path towards that Essence.
Here’s the thing. In the image we described, the Virtual Self, hovering there, is suspended above the Authentic Self, and there is a SPACE between them. This space is like a no-man’s land, (or no-woman’s land :-)…which is like a void, a space of unknowing. This space is where true learning can occur. It really is a place of having a “blank slate” on which to now author your new life.
However, it doesn’t necessarily feel good to be in this void space. This place is an inevitable part of Authentic Life Transformation. It can feel dark, lonely, confusing, anticipatory, and exciting.
This is not at all unlike waiting for something new to be born. This is not at all unlike this season’s promises of new life, new light in a dark world, something divine being born within.
I like to think of this place as a wrapped gift, waiting to be discovered. I like to remember that it’s fun to shake the present, listen to the mysterious sounds coming from inside, feel it’s heftiness and wonder …. WHAT…awaits? WHO…is emerging?HOW…will my life change?
I offer you this possibility: This treasure is worth the wait.
~by Amanda Zabel